I was like you’re terrible, how could you do this to everyone involved. So I just felt like I deserved everything I got and more. I just felt so bad about it.
Lilian: I remember pulling you on the side and I get emotional too because I remember that moment and I remember pulling you on the side and just telling you like – Nobody should be judging anybody. We’ve all done things in our lives. I remember I saw you beating yourself up to no end.
Lita: I was so skinny and I remember everybody’s like “Oh my god you look so good”. I was like yeah I have ulcers, I don’t eat, I don’t sleep.
So it was just rough and as bad as it was, I had him when I tried to do this like half in half out thing. Because we always said we didn’t regret our bond. We regret how we went about it. As we felt so bad so we’re like we don’t want to put anybody’s face like everybody’s hurting so bad.
I didn’t have anybody to weather the storm with. So we tried. We had some great time. We had some great moments. But ultimately it was too tainted going in on the front end to be able to sustain.
So it took up so long to be comfortable and okay with everything. I think Adam and I, our whole thing always had been like I don’t want to say anything and I’m not going to talk about it because I can actually deny about 80% of the recount and how it went about and what we our actual level of involvement was. But I can’t deny 100% percent of it so I’m just gonna shut up.
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